Holidays

Finally, I having my holidays without any practise for CO. I did went back to school for CO but I felt so odd. I did work but sometime I don't feel like working than I did not really go and work. During the holiday, many thing had happened. Did not really care about the thing that I felt to say. I did went out with my family but I did not really go out with my friends. The unstable feeling is very difficult to control. I used to control the feeling very good but holidays, I think I just want to be myself. I always ask myself, do the eldest child in the family must be always perfect? Why must I be perfect all the time? I started to think of that, but after thinking of that, my feeling become very unstable and feel like screaming out so loud until my voice went off. Luckily, I was able to control my feeling towards many thing. I think I should stop talking about it. Did not really receive message from my favourite junior, Ying Jun. Just don't care so much.

Lastly, Hyun Joong opppa is coming to Singapore on the 1st of December to 3rd of December. I'm so excited but I cannot go for his fan meeting. Anyway, hope he will have fun during the time in Singapore.

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